I can't preach about this, because only in the very recent years, have I started to realize this. This has been a very difficult journey for me - a work in progress - and something that I need to be conscience about every day. My struggle with realizing this, was that I felt that taking care of everything else in my life - made me feel good and so I must be ok. But really, I realize now that it was so the opposite. I was more worried about having a clean kitchen and bathroom, making sure that dinner was on the table and the dogs were always walked at the same time. Ok, I still like to make sure the pups are walked - but I am a little more flexible. I also make sure that we have a healthy dinner and that the house is 'somewhat' cleaned*, but I don't let those be a priority.
*My cleaning lady has quit. She has a full time job. My one clean was the best. It was good while it lasted. I need to do the bathroom - she's not coming back. Sigh.
I knew that in order for me to be healthy, that I needed to make myself number one. I didn't really realize that this would be so difficult. When I started on my journey I thought that I would just be. Just be strong, capable, willing and it would all be really easy. It wasn't. I had to recognize what was causing me stress, what I could do differently, what would still be there for me if it wasn't attended to right away.
I am still struggling on the journey. But it's a different challenge. I had stress in my life before, and it actually made me sick - now, when I am feeling stress - I make myself realize what it is, and do something about it as soon as possible.
I know that we are all different - that's what makes the world go around. But, I think that taking care of ourselves is something that should be the same. I guess the way in which we do it, is different. I think that we need to and should be asking for help from those around us. But it's important to remember that we can't solely rely on them. I also think that it's really important that we surround ourselves with other people that can help us on our journeys - and people that you can help along. We are all on a journey - and we can all use help in getting there.
Over and out.
Wait - a few more things.
I mailed giftys!!!! Jenny and Shannon, your packages should be arriving in 3 days. I hope you like them.
Dinner tonight was an old comfort food standby. Meat pie - and roasted veggies. I had a craving for something comforting tonight. I had a crap food day today at work - I didn't eat breakfast - didn't have a chance - had a donut - really healthy Mitchell. Then ate lunch way to late - a veggie sandwich on whole wheat - I guess that wasn't too bad - but I just didn't feel great about those choices. See journey above. HA!
The pups and I had a great walk - there was a lot of stopping and sniffing - we haven't had a walk in the hood in ages b/c we've been doing park walks - so they had a lot of catching up to do.
Alright - I need to make lunches, do some dishes, and get ready for a healthy night of some good sleeps.
Be good to yourself. Nobody else will. (ironically sung by Journey)