Oh friends - it was a hard night. Actually parts of it were really hard, and then other parts not so bad. I think that my main struggle was just being on my own and pushing myself. I struggled with the first 10 minutes - my breathing was a bit out of control. My poor running pal, Lisa, I think that she was worried that I was going to keel over. Lisa - if you are reading - you did incredible tonight - I missed you at the end - I did make it though - slow as molasses but I made it.
I had that whole mind game going on. I just didn't push myself. And I think that the reason that I am so upset with myself is - is that I know that I can do this. I know that I can run 10 minutes with a 1 minute walk. I think that what is different from last year is that I didn't really believe in myself. I know that I can do this - I just wish that I knew that tonight. It wasn't an inspiring evening for me - but then all of a sudden I got to the 8K marker and it seemed like it all went by so fast. Don't get me wrong, I was NOT fast tonight.
My last 1K as I was just about to run in front of the Parliament buildings - my girls (I am not sure if they know that I call them that, but I do) Donna and Judy - were walking towards me to meet me and run the last couple of minutes with me. I couldn't believe it. They did so awesome tonight - they ripped up that course and applied all of their training to have a successful run. It meant so much to me - I had to do my best not to get emotional. That is what I love about this clinic this year - I have made great friends - so supportive - and I hope that they know that they are incredible ladies.
I am going to get in the zone - and I am going to work on preparing myself for race day. Whether I choose to wear my iPod, or leach on to someone and pretend that I am visually impaired so they feel worried and guilty and choose to run with me - that is what I will do. Ok, the latter - probably not - it's probably wrong on a bunch of different levels. But, I will work on what I need to work on to ensure a successful and strong run. I will do that. Check.
After a long day and a long run - I am still missing my kidlets in Summerland. I really missed them this morning - and just want to have them close by all the time. I will see them in the next couple of months - and can't wait!
Alright Tuesday night fans. I appreciate you listening to my rant about my run. Life will get better - this funk will pass - and I have to just remember that I ran/walked 10K tonight - when I could have been sitting on my Royal Canadian at home.
Run like the wind.